You take the good and you take the bad...take them both and there you have...the facts of life.

The road to adoption really is one that is long, lonely, stressful and emotional. Actually you can probably use every possible adjective to describe it. We are making some changes that I will post about later once we know if the change is possible, but other than that we just sit and wait.

And really waiting is so passive. I want to be able to control something or help speed the process up. I do know that God has a plan for us and we are unable to see it, but man he could help a girl's sanity out by showing a sign or something!

Nothing has changed really no info from our agency or lawyer (who really we don't expect to hear anything from), and nothing really with our birth mother letters or blogs. But we remain positive and hopeful (well most days!). Adoption seems to be becoming more mainstream, or maybe I just have a vested interest in adoption now so I see it.

There is a great show on We that is called Adoption Stories. I encourage anyone to watch that show, it totally explains and shows how powerful open adoption is. I have also met someone at the gym, and in our chit chat working out with our trainer, she told me that their son they adopted at birth. Well my jaw just about dropped and I told her we were in the waiting game to adopt. She is great, gave me her number to call when I need to talk to someone who understand infertility and adoption. It was a renewed hope so to speak.

We are staying pretty active doing sprint triathlons and 5k races. But the reality is we are beyong ready to become parents. The holidays are coming up and this could potentially be our 3rd holiday season of not being parents when we so want to be. That is hard I am not going to lie. Part of me wants to just retreat and spend time with David, and we still may.

This journey, which could end sooner rather than later, is one that I know has made us such a strong couple and has tested all that we are. I can't wait to look back at the journey and know it was so worth it. And it will be worth it!